Yearly Archives: 2012

1912, 2012

One Billion Chances

By |December 19th, 2012|Anti-Stigma, Compassion, I Love You, Insight, Living with Sz, Loss, Political, Stigma, Suicide, Trapped, Uncategorized, Victimisation, Voices|Comments Off on One Billion Chances

In every schizophrenic
there is…

1000000000 reasons why?

1000000000 excuses

1000000000 tears

1000000000 suicides

1000000000 voices

give them

1000000000 smiles

1000000000 times for salvation

1000000000 hearts

1000000000 kisses

1000000000 chances

David Holloway (c) 2012

2611, 2012


By |November 26th, 2012|Imagination, Insight|Comments Off on Dualism

2411, 2012

Right Unilateral

By |November 24th, 2012|Consciousness, Imagination, Reality, Senses, Sensual, Voices|Comments Off on Right Unilateral

In the midst of this room
I lie still as they put the IV into the crook of my arm- I wince.
A rolled up towel is placed beneath my neck, and
A sheet to cover my legs-
I see flies hovering about the […]

511, 2012


By |November 5th, 2012|Humiliation, Insight, Living with Sz, Stigma|Comments Off on Pigeons

it is not the weak

          and feeble who

                     should be judged

                      as pigeons in the


2010, 2012


By |October 20th, 2012|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Insight, Loss, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on Recuperating

After great pain, a formal feeling comes….
-Emily Dickinson

After pain’s mind-numbing decibels,
in the stunned silence of an empty room
a crowd has just left, you feel formal,
you feel like you’re made of glass
sitting on the edge of your chair,
fingers trembling, trying to […]

1310, 2012


By |October 13th, 2012|Medication, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Voices|Comments Off on Prolixin

Today I heard voices upon awakening-
They were screaming “I want to kill you”
In this moment of madness I turned my head, and found myself alone.
I thought I had heard footsteps and believed that
These voices were coming from hell-

But again I […]

910, 2012

Saw You Again

By |October 9th, 2012|Desire, I Love You, Sensual|Comments Off on Saw You Again

saw her again last night
hair draped over her back
scent of vanilla and jasmine on her neck
she noticed me with a knowing look
a lingering stare as her pupils dilated
and she smiled…..

in one moment I gasped
to draw air into my lungs
this was […]

1309, 2012

Life in the land of the Dead

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Loss, Lost, Panic, Psychosis, Senses, Trapped|Comments Off on Life in the land of the Dead

I live in the land of the dead.
Upon this path I have taken my walk alone.
My feet would hit the ground with hard and steady steps.
I hear cymbals crashing and the tuneful rhythm of the beating of drums.
I have lost […]

1309, 2012

The Quiet Room

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Fear, Panic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on The Quiet Room

By a thread, I hang, as the knell tolls.
Moribund and cacophonous,
Surrounded by angels of death, I am.
They chortle and laugh at me, as
The tragic side show carries on.
I am amongst the persecuted,
Caught in a sinister grasp-
With the clapping of thunder,
My […]

2808, 2012


By |August 28th, 2012|Paranoia, Philosophical, Racism, Stigma|Comments Off on Gargoyles

These days we know

what’s happening with

the etiology of

Bleuler’s illness,

but it remains a

complex paradigm



So many people

with schizophrenia are

suffering, but

those from minority races,

are facing

a 9/11 hell, they are

living with it every day;

the victimisation! No

treatment is given for

this idenity crisis,

on both sides.


These issues

are not […]

2808, 2012


By |August 28th, 2012|Dark, Demonic, Dreams, Fantasy, Loss, Lost, Manic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Religious, Salvation, Supernatural, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Salvation

Trapped within a crowd of hellish strangers
I shy away as they vindictively look into my eyes and
Presumptuously, steal my thoughts-
Laughter fills the air- as
Their voices terrorize- simultaneously the voices inside of my mind echo in an
Attempt to comfort, to placate […]

2808, 2012


By |August 28th, 2012|Desire, Sensual, Soul|Comments Off on Together

You know what

I desire, your eyes are

caught in the

echo of my body,

the swell of my blood flow

inhaling my emotion-

my sex.


You turn to me

undressed, thigh showing

with the curves of

your ass. You watch

me smile that’s

your drug, as we

make homage to Venus,

we come together,

to […]

2808, 2012

Feel Me Breathe

By |August 28th, 2012|Desire, I Love You, Sensual|Comments Off on Feel Me Breathe

The rise and fall
The in and the out
Faster and faster
Deeper and hold it
Explode like a bomb
Soft to the touch
Skin covered in bumps
Hairs so soft and thin
Sparse covering for warmth
Hot and flowing like a breeze
Feel me my love, feel me breathe.

M. […]

2208, 2012


By |August 22nd, 2012|Alone, Confusion, Dark, Fear, Loss, Time, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Hallucinations

Night has fallen, although
Midnight hours are never strange, and
When rain or snow,
Sometimes is
Heavily falling, though these sounds I cannot hear.
It was just another night,
Another day, or
Another minute
Just as yesterday has
Slipped through the crack
Beneath my bedroom door,
Locked, dead bolted and keyed,
I […]

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