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3012, 2015

Hypnotic Television

By |December 30th, 2015|Delusion, Media, Paranoia|Comments Off on Hypnotic Television

Look into their eyes,
in the gurning live presenter’s face.
Look how they purvey
an expression of
anti-schizophrenia. They
express what we lack—facial
reading, cartoon like selfie smiles. Look,
you see the telepromter in their buzzing
radiating eyes.

Be aware
of mirroring the box with […]

1610, 2013

Unearthly Beings

By |October 16th, 2013|Consciousness, Dark, Delusion, Fantasy, Mind Games, Psychosis, Senses, Spiritual, Supernatural, Symptoms|Comments Off on Unearthly Beings

I see them, they are so real.
They fade as soon as they learn that I am awake and see them watching me.
They are concealed with bright yellow light, just a shape is there for me to behold.
Last night it was […]

1501, 2013

The Thought Thieves

By |January 15th, 2013|Delusion, Insight, Mistrust, Paranoia, Uncategorized|Comments Off on The Thought Thieves

I think a thought
Of which they take
They create an idea
Which is fake

An idea that was mine
A thought that was fine
A heavenly vision
On a mission

They take them so boldly
And kill them solely
To enslave and control me
And trick and fool me

I’m starting […]

1108, 2012

Asylum

By |August 11th, 2012|Delusion, Lost, Philosophical, Reality, Religious, Spiritual, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on Asylum

My tears are blue,
My eyes, Purple, green and black-
Yours, I do not know the color of-
I may have met you before in some dark alley-
Your eyes are shut as you sleep- You, I do not know.
All eyes are upon me […]

3007, 2012

Superpowers

By |July 30th, 2012|Delusion, Philosophical, Senses, Spiritual, Supernatural, Symptoms|Comments Off on Superpowers

Is he enlightened by
the insight he craves from a
numerology website? He thinks that
the number 5 is irrational and
a tarot reading using his name and birthday
combined reveal an inner part of his fate.
When he thinks about the Holy Spirit his powers
emanate […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

1807, 2012

Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

By |July 18th, 2012|Alone, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Psychosis, Reality|Comments Off on Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

In this moment I feel as if I am falling,
Into a prison from nowhere,
I see my shadow arabesque as
I watch my reflection appear
In a river of never abating madness-
Hiding from all that is real,
Moments have passed since I lay upon
A […]

2205, 2012

They Live Here

By |May 22nd, 2012|Alone, Audio, Delusion, Humiliation, Mistrust, Paranoia, Reality, Supernatural, Symptoms, Voices|Comments Off on They Live Here

There have often been times when I have shut the world out-
But never fear, for I carry a key on a string inside of my mind-
A key that unlocks that door to madness, as
Threatening people have often wondered
What goes […]

2004, 2012

My Psychiatrist

By |April 20th, 2012|Audio, Delusion, Medication, Mind Games, Paranoia|Comments Off on My Psychiatrist

My psychiatrist is a C.I.A. Agent
I know this to be true
You’d better watch out
He may be watching you

He poisons me daily
By giving me pills
That cloud my mind
And make me ill

His cameras spy
On my every move
As I try to flee
And escape […]

704, 2012

A SPIRIT MADE ME SICK

By |April 7th, 2012|Audio, Dark, Delusion, Demonic, Psychosis, Supernatural|Comments Off on A SPIRIT MADE ME SICK

A SPIRIT MADE ME SICK…
I was quite okay until I came to learn
that bad things
could happen in life.
I was eleven and Dad was leaving….
For good this time.
I even dreamt it before it happened.
And I am still the prophet I was,
except […]

3003, 2012

The Demon

By |March 30th, 2012|Audio, Dark, Delusion, Demonic, Loss, Paranoia|Comments Off on The Demon

Who is that man
That I see
Who is that man
That watches me

You look suspicious
And very strange
Stop staring at me
As if you’re deranged

I look at you
You glare me
I begin to see
Your murderous spree

I’m onto you
I see your hate
As […]

1111, 2011

Being Normal

By |November 11th, 2011|Delusion, Insight, Paranoia, Psychosis, Stigma|Comments Off on Being Normal

Too normal to receive sympathy
Too unwell to get respect,
Too sedated to have lucidity
Too conscious to see neglect,
Too bitter to find regret,

Too anxious to be confident,
Too aloof to become popular,
Too sad to be unrepentant
Too knowing to heal the scar,
Too naive to […]

811, 2011

Time Ran Backwards

By |November 8th, 2011|Delusion, Insight, Mind Games|Comments Off on Time Ran Backwards

Lonely in a soul
anger swells inside
Looking for a sign
divine lessons everywhere
Traps and snares appear
Paralysed by hate
Puzzles too simple
to solve, make it harder
to accept
I could have it all
You can’t save me
I have put a barrier up
Your attraction is 
ignored, no repressed
In a […]

2307, 2011

Too real to be a dream.

By |July 23rd, 2011|Dark, Delusion, Insight|1 Comment

Mind is whirling
Life is shaken
Nights of sleep are long forsaken.
Laying down
Close my eyes
Something takes me by surprise.
Flash of red
Heart is stinging
Breath fades out, darkness deepening.
See the faces
Hear the screams
But then I know it’s all a dream.
By: Ostie Jennette

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