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2707, 2014

War

By |July 27th, 2014|Alone, Introspection, Lonely, Lost, Sanity, Suicide, Voices|Comments Off on War

Arguing and yelling
Doubting and threatening
Typical
Battle of the voices
I’m dying to stop the noises
Overdose?
Maybe so
End my life
Win the war
Victory!
No!
Prozac is in store
60mg pop em and swallow
My life routine
Someone save me,
This internal battle
Will be the end of me
They won
My life
The war

By: Keisha

2006, 2014

Untitled

By |June 20th, 2014|Alone, Dark, Insight, Introspection, Philosophical, Uncategorized|Comments Off on Untitled

This is a matter of life or death, I’m righteous yet
I still adhere to medication with suicidal side effects
The super-ego that’s the self-critic inside your head
I am my own worst enemy because everything outside these lens
Does not exist, so where […]

805, 2014

Breakthrough

By |May 8th, 2014|Alone, Empowerment, Insight, Introspection, Philosophical|Comments Off on Breakthrough

I start the day over with a smile on my face
Life is too short to live as if you’re a disgrace
Where am I headed??? I got some ideas
Alone I struggle, together we get through our fears

It started when I was […]

1203, 2014

The Test of Heroes

By |March 12th, 2014|Alone, Insight, Introspection, Lonely, Lost, Paranoia, Philosophical, Trapped, War|Comments Off on The Test of Heroes

Alone with myself in a situation that pits my own wits against my own wits,
a fight within myself that cannot be won.
A tangent on a pile of tangents left to wander, lost within itself,
in an infinite loop of paranoia that […]

602, 2014

Weeping Willow

By |February 6th, 2014|Confusion, Introspection, Life, Lonely, Loss, Lost, Nature|Comments Off on Weeping Willow

The Willow stands central in the garden,
Weeping onto winter’s bitter shoulder.
I hear her crying in the dead of night,
I pull a pillow over my head;
But the sadness still remains.

Her slumped trunk,
Her sagging skin,
A vertical eye forever open.
Her branches hang like […]

1301, 2014

Reformat My Mind

By |January 13th, 2014|Imagination, Insight, Introspection, Trapped, Uncategorized|Comments Off on Reformat My Mind

Reformat my mind because I’m not what I ought to be
Files scattered carelessly and no auto-arrange
Once deleted never quite forgotten
Repair my disk

My modem won’t connect and I can’t communicate
My server down, I’ve crashed, I’m a blank screen
I sound a wail, […]

1812, 2013

This is Who I am

By |December 18th, 2013|Anti-Stigma, Bullying, Current Events, Introspection, Life, Society, Stereotypes, Stigma|Comments Off on This is Who I am

I suffer from schizophrenia…

Now I realize a lot of people’s reaction to that will be ‘knife-wielding maniac’, ‘Norman Bates’, ‘Hannibal Lecter’ or even ‘Texas Chainsaw Massacre’.

Trust me when I tell you ‘I’ve heard them all before’. Now, don’t get me […]

1812, 2013

Schizophrenia

By |December 18th, 2013|Dark, Demonic, Insight, Introspection, Mind Games, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Schizophrenia

There is no fight when the voices begin

An immediate obedience naturally sets in

There is no defence against these spiritual offenders

Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender

I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.

But sounds of familiarity ruin my day

No night passes […]

1610, 2013

me

By |October 16th, 2013|Insight, Introspection, Life, Medication, Sanity, Senses, Society|Comments Off on me

I am the sound of rattling pill bottles.
I am the emptying of your bank account.
I am a million unused memberships.
I am broken bottles scattered across a playground on the nice side of town.

I am every missed call you had that […]

406, 2013

Deaf Ears / Voices of the Lost

By |June 4th, 2013|Consciousness, Dreams, Imagination, Insight, Introspection, Life, Lonely, Loss, Nature, Spiritual, Voices|Comments Off on Deaf Ears / Voices of the Lost

Darkness falls over the land.
Speech is lost.
Deaf ears hear voices of the lost.
We speak with thick tongues and our voices are those of the message.
To receive, to deny, we care not, only that you hear us, we who are lost. […]

1504, 2013

Idealism

By |April 15th, 2013|Insight, Introspection, Life, Philosophical, Political, Uncategorized|Comments Off on Idealism

Schizophrenia is often
idealised by the desire to
know the law of God and a
love for spiritual gifts, or the
hatred of money and power.
It’s a state of opposites, or
so it seems, as poverty is
compounded by the
philosophy of ‘saints’.
Yet nobody believes in
their badges […]

703, 2013

Breathe

By |March 7th, 2013|Compassion, Conspiracy, Dark, Insight, Introspection, Paranoia, Reality|Comments Off on Breathe

When conspiracies and accusations formulate in words on your tongue,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the children grow farther and farther away and you watch and weep as they start to go,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the horse senses your spook and send […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

1601, 2013

Off the Top of my Head

By |January 16th, 2013|Confusion, Introspection, Spiritual, Voices|Comments Off on Off the Top of my Head

TRUTH
Sometimes I can’t even explain
the manic voices that puts
a charge in my chest
while visions are projected
on a screen in my brain
The “I Love New York” ashtray
adds smog to my apartment
and I am the last guy on earth
to figure out I-tunes
I […]

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