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2606, 2014

Stuck

By |June 26th, 2014|Alone, Panic, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped, Uncategorized, Voices|Comments Off on Stuck

Spying, crying.
Talking, mocking.
Screaming, creeping.
I can feel them in my head.
I only wish they were under my bed.
There’s no light when they start speaking.
I’m stuck in the dark, my cranium creaking.
My mind is abused, every day.
There are people in my head […]

3007, 2013

From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

By |July 30th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Dark, Death, Depression, Fear, Mind Games, Panic, Psychosis, Suicide, Trapped|Comments Off on From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

Sanding on the edge of Waterloo Bridge
With the cold wind cutting my face,
I glance down to the Thames far below;
It ebbs and flows, a sea of waste.

I hold tight to the iron bar,
Blades of ice begin to pour.
Behind me the […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

1309, 2012

Life in the land of the Dead

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Loss, Lost, Panic, Psychosis, Senses, Trapped|Comments Off on Life in the land of the Dead

I live in the land of the dead.
Upon this path I have taken my walk alone.
My feet would hit the ground with hard and steady steps.
I hear cymbals crashing and the tuneful rhythm of the beating of drums.
I have lost […]

1309, 2012

The Quiet Room

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Fear, Panic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on The Quiet Room

By a thread, I hang, as the knell tolls.
Moribund and cacophonous,
Surrounded by angels of death, I am.
They chortle and laugh at me, as
The tragic side show carries on.
I am amongst the persecuted,
Caught in a sinister grasp-
With the clapping of thunder,
My […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

2007, 2012

One Two Three

By |July 20th, 2012|Manic, Mind Games, Panic, Philosophical, Reality, Senses, Symptoms|1 Comment

No longer schizophrenic
This has made me feel so manic
Even frantic
Because now they’re saying
It’s a matter of semantics
Because I appear so well
To schizophrenia, with it the hell
So now it’s a moody brain
That thought is just insane
Fix me. I know it’s such […]

1807, 2012

Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

By |July 18th, 2012|Alone, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Psychosis, Reality|Comments Off on Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

In this moment I feel as if I am falling,
Into a prison from nowhere,
I see my shadow arabesque as
I watch my reflection appear
In a river of never abating madness-
Hiding from all that is real,
Moments have passed since I lay upon
A […]

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