Paranoia

/Paranoia
3012, 2015

Hypnotic Television

By |December 30th, 2015|Delusion, Media, Paranoia|Comments Off on Hypnotic Television

Look into their eyes,
in the gurning live presenter’s face.
Look how they purvey
an expression of
anti-schizophrenia. They
express what we lack—facial
reading, cartoon like selfie smiles. Look,
you see the telepromter in their buzzing
radiating eyes.

Be aware
of mirroring the box with […]

1203, 2014

The Test of Heroes

By |March 12th, 2014|Alone, Insight, Introspection, Lonely, Lost, Paranoia, Philosophical, Trapped, War|Comments Off on The Test of Heroes

Alone with myself in a situation that pits my own wits against my own wits,
a fight within myself that cannot be won.
A tangent on a pile of tangents left to wander, lost within itself,
in an infinite loop of paranoia that […]

1812, 2013

Schizophrenia

By |December 18th, 2013|Dark, Demonic, Insight, Introspection, Mind Games, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Schizophrenia

There is no fight when the voices begin

An immediate obedience naturally sets in

There is no defence against these spiritual offenders

Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender

I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.

But sounds of familiarity ruin my day

No night passes […]

2411, 2013

Ridiculously There

By |November 24th, 2013|Confusion, Dark, Ghosts, Paranoia, Philosophical, Supernatural|Comments Off on Ridiculously There

Ghosts are interacting with my mind
based on thought and time and place

It seems that’s what they told me
when I told them it’s a waste

I told that they have no place in
my mind
For they do not exist –
That and they do […]

1510, 2013

The Schizophrenic Train

By |October 15th, 2013|Confusion, Dark, Fear, Lost, Mind Games, Paranoia, Senses|Comments Off on The Schizophrenic Train

The schizophrenia train runs straight through your brain it is signalled by destruction and it leaves you insane. You travel in darkness in the middle of night as it leaves reality you beg for the light. It's a one way ticket to hell as you arrive at the station. The devil leaves you with nothing but antipsychotic medication. You begin to panic you must be free some jump the train to safety The ticket is bought like you; your soul taken in vain- there are no stops on the schizophrenic train. @schizpoetry
305, 2013

Rambling Rave

By |May 3rd, 2013|Conspiracy, Current Events, Mind Games, Paranoia, Political, Reality|Comments Off on Rambling Rave

caught in a maelstrom
I sit in stillness

to see sisters suffering
and begging brothers breaking

it goes on
as do drones
that kill children

my unreality
just doesn’t compare
with the viciousness
of ‘reality’

question it
the answers
bring up more
questions
Tangent followers
tie us up
in knots
drilling down so deep

down the rabbit hole

we exist […]

703, 2013

Breathe

By |March 7th, 2013|Compassion, Conspiracy, Dark, Insight, Introspection, Paranoia, Reality|Comments Off on Breathe

When conspiracies and accusations formulate in words on your tongue,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the children grow farther and farther away and you watch and weep as they start to go,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the horse senses your spook and send […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

1501, 2013

The Thought Thieves

By |January 15th, 2013|Delusion, Insight, Mistrust, Paranoia, Uncategorized|Comments Off on The Thought Thieves

I think a thought
Of which they take
They create an idea
Which is fake

An idea that was mine
A thought that was fine
A heavenly vision
On a mission

They take them so boldly
And kill them solely
To enslave and control me
And trick and fool me

I’m starting […]

401, 2013

The Switch

By |January 4th, 2013|Alone, Anti-Stigma, Bullying, Living with Sz, Loss, Mind Games, Mistrust, Paranoia, Stigma, Trapped|Comments Off on The Switch

Flick the switch..that’s what
they say

on, off, on off,
it’s in people’s heads,
one flick and you’re gone…..

The switch, the disability switch-
he’s weird, she’s strange,
he’s a fool….

Don’t hang around him….

He’s handsome but he’s damaged,
why he might hurt you..

flick the switch, forget
about them….off,
fade to […]

1310, 2012

Prolixin

By |October 13th, 2012|Medication, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Voices|Comments Off on Prolixin

Today I heard voices upon awakening-
They were screaming “I want to kill you”
In this moment of madness I turned my head, and found myself alone.
I thought I had heard footsteps and believed that
These voices were coming from hell-

But again I […]

2808, 2012

Gargoyles

By |August 28th, 2012|Paranoia, Philosophical, Racism, Stigma|Comments Off on Gargoyles

These days we know

what’s happening with

the etiology of

Bleuler’s illness,

but it remains a

complex paradigm

shift.

 

So many people

with schizophrenia are

suffering, but

those from minority races,

are facing

a 9/11 hell, they are

living with it every day;

the victimisation! No

treatment is given for

this idenity crisis,

on both sides.

 

These issues

are not […]

2808, 2012

Salvation

By |August 28th, 2012|Dark, Demonic, Dreams, Fantasy, Loss, Lost, Manic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Religious, Salvation, Supernatural, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Salvation

Trapped within a crowd of hellish strangers
I shy away as they vindictively look into my eyes and
Presumptuously, steal my thoughts-
Laughter fills the air- as
Their voices terrorize- simultaneously the voices inside of my mind echo in an
Attempt to comfort, to placate […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

Load More Posts