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1812, 2013

Schizophrenia

By |December 18th, 2013|Dark, Demonic, Insight, Introspection, Mind Games, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Schizophrenia

There is no fight when the voices begin

An immediate obedience naturally sets in

There is no defence against these spiritual offenders

Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender

I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.

But sounds of familiarity ruin my day

No night passes […]

305, 2013

Rambling Rave

By |May 3rd, 2013|Conspiracy, Current Events, Mind Games, Paranoia, Political, Reality|Comments Off on Rambling Rave

caught in a maelstrom
I sit in stillness

to see sisters suffering
and begging brothers breaking

it goes on
as do drones
that kill children

my unreality
just doesn’t compare
with the viciousness
of ‘reality’

question it
the answers
bring up more
questions
Tangent followers
tie us up
in knots
drilling down so deep

down the rabbit hole

we exist […]

104, 2013

Stigmatized

By |April 1st, 2013|Bullying, Philosophical, Reality, Recovery, Stigma, Victimisation|Comments Off on Stigmatized

Devastated, out of touch
With all reality
Schizophrenia brought out
A different side of me

My perspective has been changed
Since I was diagnosed
Treated like a lunatic
Was what I feared the most

Stigmatized, I realized
The ignorance inside
Of those who would look at me
And want to run […]

703, 2013

Breathe

By |March 7th, 2013|Compassion, Conspiracy, Dark, Insight, Introspection, Paranoia, Reality|Comments Off on Breathe

When conspiracies and accusations formulate in words on your tongue,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the children grow farther and farther away and you watch and weep as they start to go,
don’t forget to breathe.
When the horse senses your spook and send […]

2411, 2012

Right Unilateral

By |November 24th, 2012|Consciousness, Imagination, Reality, Senses, Sensual, Voices|Comments Off on Right Unilateral

In the midst of this room
I lie still as they put the IV into the crook of my arm- I wince.
A rolled up towel is placed beneath my neck, and
A sheet to cover my legs-
I see flies hovering about the […]

1310, 2012

Prolixin

By |October 13th, 2012|Medication, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Voices|Comments Off on Prolixin

Today I heard voices upon awakening-
They were screaming “I want to kill you”
In this moment of madness I turned my head, and found myself alone.
I thought I had heard footsteps and believed that
These voices were coming from hell-

But again I […]

2808, 2012

Salvation

By |August 28th, 2012|Dark, Demonic, Dreams, Fantasy, Loss, Lost, Manic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Religious, Salvation, Supernatural, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Salvation

Trapped within a crowd of hellish strangers
I shy away as they vindictively look into my eyes and
Presumptuously, steal my thoughts-
Laughter fills the air- as
Their voices terrorize- simultaneously the voices inside of my mind echo in an
Attempt to comfort, to placate […]

1108, 2012

Asylum

By |August 11th, 2012|Delusion, Lost, Philosophical, Reality, Religious, Spiritual, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on Asylum

My tears are blue,
My eyes, Purple, green and black-
Yours, I do not know the color of-
I may have met you before in some dark alley-
Your eyes are shut as you sleep- You, I do not know.
All eyes are upon me […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

2007, 2012

One Two Three

By |July 20th, 2012|Manic, Mind Games, Panic, Philosophical, Reality, Senses, Symptoms|1 Comment

No longer schizophrenic
This has made me feel so manic
Even frantic
Because now they’re saying
It’s a matter of semantics
Because I appear so well
To schizophrenia, with it the hell
So now it’s a moody brain
That thought is just insane
Fix me. I know it’s such […]

1807, 2012

Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

By |July 18th, 2012|Alone, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Psychosis, Reality|Comments Off on Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

In this moment I feel as if I am falling,
Into a prison from nowhere,
I see my shadow arabesque as
I watch my reflection appear
In a river of never abating madness-
Hiding from all that is real,
Moments have passed since I lay upon
A […]

2205, 2012

They Live Here

By |May 22nd, 2012|Alone, Audio, Delusion, Humiliation, Mistrust, Paranoia, Reality, Supernatural, Symptoms, Voices|Comments Off on They Live Here

There have often been times when I have shut the world out-
But never fear, for I carry a key on a string inside of my mind-
A key that unlocks that door to madness, as
Threatening people have often wondered
What goes […]

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