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104, 2016

dark times

By |April 1st, 2016|Demonic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on dark times

Here I sit alone and lit
aware of the beauty that surrounds me
but voices disrupt the peacefulness of it
They just don’t fit, it’s like they’re hungry and won’t quit
They won’t quit their jabbering, u quivering, and blabbing
Always with me whispering
“What’s […]

2606, 2014

Stuck

By |June 26th, 2014|Alone, Panic, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped, Uncategorized, Voices|Comments Off on Stuck

Spying, crying.
Talking, mocking.
Screaming, creeping.
I can feel them in my head.
I only wish they were under my bed.
There’s no light when they start speaking.
I’m stuck in the dark, my cranium creaking.
My mind is abused, every day.
There are people in my head […]

805, 2014

The Earth is Bipolar

By |May 8th, 2014|Alone, Insight, Living with Sz, Philosophical, Senses, Symptoms|Comments Off on The Earth is Bipolar

Sleepless nights,
Time has become meaningless.
Pareidolic faces in the clouds,
I am seeing patterns and meanings behind things,
Diagnosis: apophenia
Secret personal messages
in the glowing box in the corner,
Guiding, mocking, scolding…
Initiation to the modern world.
Schadenfreude voyeuristic tabloid,
Telling me how I’m inadequate.

My hands and feet […]

1610, 2013

Unearthly Beings

By |October 16th, 2013|Consciousness, Dark, Delusion, Fantasy, Mind Games, Psychosis, Senses, Spiritual, Supernatural, Symptoms|Comments Off on Unearthly Beings

I see them, they are so real.
They fade as soon as they learn that I am awake and see them watching me.
They are concealed with bright yellow light, just a shape is there for me to behold.
Last night it was […]

2703, 2013

CHAOS

By |March 27th, 2013|Anxiety, Confusion, Mind Games, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on CHAOS

iF THERE WERE 50 PEOPLE IN A ROOM AND THEY ALL STARTED TALKING TO YOU AT THE SAME TIME.
tHE VOICES GETTING LOUDER AND LOUDER, AS YOUR MIND STARTS RACING, YOU’RE TRYING
TO FOLLOW.
bUT INSTEAD OF FOLLOWING, THE VOICES GET LOUDER AND […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

2010, 2012

Recuperating

By |October 20th, 2012|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Insight, Loss, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on Recuperating

After great pain, a formal feeling comes….
-Emily Dickinson

After pain’s mind-numbing decibels,
in the stunned silence of an empty room
a crowd has just left, you feel formal,
you feel like you’re made of glass
sitting on the edge of your chair,
fingers trembling, trying to […]

1309, 2012

The Quiet Room

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Fear, Panic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on The Quiet Room

By a thread, I hang, as the knell tolls.
Moribund and cacophonous,
Surrounded by angels of death, I am.
They chortle and laugh at me, as
The tragic side show carries on.
I am amongst the persecuted,
Caught in a sinister grasp-
With the clapping of thunder,
My […]

2808, 2012

Salvation

By |August 28th, 2012|Dark, Demonic, Dreams, Fantasy, Loss, Lost, Manic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Religious, Salvation, Supernatural, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Salvation

Trapped within a crowd of hellish strangers
I shy away as they vindictively look into my eyes and
Presumptuously, steal my thoughts-
Laughter fills the air- as
Their voices terrorize- simultaneously the voices inside of my mind echo in an
Attempt to comfort, to placate […]

1108, 2012

Asylum

By |August 11th, 2012|Delusion, Lost, Philosophical, Reality, Religious, Spiritual, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on Asylum

My tears are blue,
My eyes, Purple, green and black-
Yours, I do not know the color of-
I may have met you before in some dark alley-
Your eyes are shut as you sleep- You, I do not know.
All eyes are upon me […]

1108, 2012

Consciousness

By |August 11th, 2012|Alone, Consciousness, Loss, Nature, Philosophical, Soul, Symptoms|Comments Off on Consciousness

There is no shoe where once one stood,
Silhouette of one man’s soul understood,
Glistening in the stream deepening,
Resilient in the mind not sleeping,
Overcome distraught with deep meaning,
Barriers of consciousness dividing the evening.

Dustin DeMoss (c)

3007, 2012

Superpowers

By |July 30th, 2012|Delusion, Philosophical, Senses, Spiritual, Supernatural, Symptoms|Comments Off on Superpowers

Is he enlightened by
the insight he craves from a
numerology website? He thinks that
the number 5 is irrational and
a tarot reading using his name and birthday
combined reveal an inner part of his fate.
When he thinks about the Holy Spirit his powers
emanate […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

2307, 2012

Seclusion

By |July 23rd, 2012|Alone, Anxiety, Dark, Death, Fear, Philosophical, Symptoms|Comments Off on Seclusion

Tonight is a dark night
Here within the garden of the deceased
In this place where wounded spirits who have lost their sanity
Are banned from the world outside,
Here in this desolate place where nobody sees the light of day.
I am alone where […]

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