Here I sit alone and lit
aware of the beauty that surrounds me
but voices disrupt the peacefulness of it
They just don’t fit, it’s like they’re hungry and won’t quit
They won’t quit their jabbering, u quivering, and blabbing
Always with me whispering
Here I sit alone and lit
Welcome to hell, all highways lead there in this place, there is no sanctuary! Everywhere is hell here. The highway, the rest stops and the destination, I seek for solace in the woods and in the city, with friends and […]
Like a spider that climbs up your hand
Black, with white crest across its belly
Which paralyzes your senses;
Like a snake with brown diamonds
on its slender body
With a tongue that sticks out a warning:
So is the darkness that can be felt
I can feel them in my head.
I only wish they were under my bed.
There’s no light when they start speaking.
I’m stuck in the dark, my cranium creaking.
My mind is abused, every day.
There are people in my head […]
Alone with myself in a situation that pits my own wits against my own wits,
a fight within myself that cannot be won.
A tangent on a pile of tangents left to wander, lost within itself,
in an infinite loop of paranoia that […]
There is no fight when the voices begin
An immediate obedience naturally sets in
There is no defence against these spiritual offenders
Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender
I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.
But sounds of familiarity ruin my day
No night passes […]
Sanding on the edge of Waterloo Bridge
With the cold wind cutting my face,
I glance down to the Thames far below;
It ebbs and flows, a sea of waste.
I hold tight to the iron bar,
Blades of ice begin to pour.
Behind me the […]
I see the life,
I used to know,
Out of the corner of my eye,
The endless possibility and the pain.
The beauty and nobility,
The men and the women.
I feel the peace of life,
Enfold me in the gentle rain.
I see my soul,
In the leaves […]
These voices in my head so loud and so true, you must end your life you tell me to do.
Your deep dark voice it spreads through my brain, you got me feeling I’m very insane.
I sob and I cry and […]
iF THERE WERE 50 PEOPLE IN A ROOM AND THEY ALL STARTED TALKING TO YOU AT THE SAME TIME.
tHE VOICES GETTING LOUDER AND LOUDER, AS YOUR MIND STARTS RACING, YOU’RE TRYING
bUT INSTEAD OF FOLLOWING, THE VOICES GET LOUDER AND […]
I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.
I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]
There are those who are forever searching and
After many decades have passed lose themselves to another world-
Although with much certainty and disillusionment
I can hardly remember living much of a life in
This world where people walk with confidence and self-assurance […]