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104, 2016

dark times

By |April 1st, 2016|Demonic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on dark times

Here I sit alone and lit
aware of the beauty that surrounds me
but voices disrupt the peacefulness of it
They just don’t fit, it’s like they’re hungry and won’t quit
They won’t quit their jabbering, u quivering, and blabbing
Always with me whispering
“What’s […]

2602, 2015

On the Highway to Hell

By |February 26th, 2015|Trapped|Comments Off on On the Highway to Hell

Welcome to hell, all highways lead there in this place, there is no sanctuary! Everywhere is hell here. The highway, the rest stops and the destination, I seek for solace in the woods and in the city, with friends and […]

510, 2014

Darkness

By |October 5th, 2014|Dark, Religious, Senses, Trapped|Comments Off on Darkness

Like a spider that climbs up your hand
Black, with white crest across its belly
Which paralyzes your senses;

Like a snake with brown diamonds
on its slender body
With a tongue that sticks out a warning:
Stay away!

So is the darkness that can be felt
Moving […]

2606, 2014

Stuck

By |June 26th, 2014|Alone, Panic, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped, Uncategorized, Voices|Comments Off on Stuck

Spying, crying.
Talking, mocking.
Screaming, creeping.
I can feel them in my head.
I only wish they were under my bed.
There’s no light when they start speaking.
I’m stuck in the dark, my cranium creaking.
My mind is abused, every day.
There are people in my head […]

1203, 2014

The Test of Heroes

By |March 12th, 2014|Alone, Insight, Introspection, Lonely, Lost, Paranoia, Philosophical, Trapped, War|Comments Off on The Test of Heroes

Alone with myself in a situation that pits my own wits against my own wits,
a fight within myself that cannot be won.
A tangent on a pile of tangents left to wander, lost within itself,
in an infinite loop of paranoia that […]

1301, 2014

Reformat My Mind

By |January 13th, 2014|Imagination, Insight, Introspection, Trapped, Uncategorized|Comments Off on Reformat My Mind

Reformat my mind because I’m not what I ought to be
Files scattered carelessly and no auto-arrange
Once deleted never quite forgotten
Repair my disk

My modem won’t connect and I can’t communicate
My server down, I’ve crashed, I’m a blank screen
I sound a wail, […]

1812, 2013

Schizophrenia

By |December 18th, 2013|Dark, Demonic, Insight, Introspection, Mind Games, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Schizophrenia

There is no fight when the voices begin

An immediate obedience naturally sets in

There is no defence against these spiritual offenders

Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender

I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.

But sounds of familiarity ruin my day

No night passes […]

3007, 2013

From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

By |July 30th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Dark, Death, Depression, Fear, Mind Games, Panic, Psychosis, Suicide, Trapped|Comments Off on From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

Sanding on the edge of Waterloo Bridge
With the cold wind cutting my face,
I glance down to the Thames far below;
It ebbs and flows, a sea of waste.

I hold tight to the iron bar,
Blades of ice begin to pour.
Behind me the […]

2907, 2013

Shattered

By |July 29th, 2013|Consciousness, Life, Loss, Recovery, Sanity, Senses, Shame, Soul, Trapped|Comments Off on Shattered

I see the life,
I used to know,
Out of the corner of my eye,
The endless possibility and the pain.
The beauty and nobility,
The men and the women.
I feel the peace of life,
Enfold me in the gentle rain.
I see my soul,
In the leaves […]

1407, 2013

insanity

By |July 14th, 2013|Alone, Dark, Fear, Lonely, Mind Games, Suicide, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on insanity

These voices in my head so loud and so true, you must end your life you tell me to do.
Your deep dark voice it spreads through my brain, you got me feeling I’m very insane.
I sob and I cry and […]

2703, 2013

CHAOS

By |March 27th, 2013|Anxiety, Confusion, Mind Games, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on CHAOS

iF THERE WERE 50 PEOPLE IN A ROOM AND THEY ALL STARTED TALKING TO YOU AT THE SAME TIME.
tHE VOICES GETTING LOUDER AND LOUDER, AS YOUR MIND STARTS RACING, YOU’RE TRYING
TO FOLLOW.
bUT INSTEAD OF FOLLOWING, THE VOICES GET LOUDER AND […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

601, 2013

When I Lost Myself

By |January 6th, 2013|Alone, Confusion, Dark, Introspection, Lost, Senses, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on When I Lost Myself

There are those who are forever searching and
After many decades have passed lose themselves to another world-
Although with much certainty and disillusionment
I can hardly remember living much of a life in
This world where people walk with confidence and self-assurance […]

401, 2013

The Switch

By |January 4th, 2013|Alone, Anti-Stigma, Bullying, Living with Sz, Loss, Mind Games, Mistrust, Paranoia, Stigma, Trapped|Comments Off on The Switch

Flick the switch..that’s what
they say

on, off, on off,
it’s in people’s heads,
one flick and you’re gone…..

The switch, the disability switch-
he’s weird, she’s strange,
he’s a fool….

Don’t hang around him….

He’s handsome but he’s damaged,
why he might hurt you..

flick the switch, forget
about them….off,
fade to […]

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