1410, 2015

The Longest Night

By |October 14th, 2015|Death|Comments Off on The Longest Night

Here they enter the door
Here to fight a winter war
A deadening, numbing battle
Fought with voices, a rumbling rattle

Here they enter the house
Here and quiet as a mouse
They hurt you, they choke you
They control you, they yoke you

They’ll steal you away
Make […]

3007, 2013

From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

By |July 30th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Dark, Death, Depression, Fear, Mind Games, Panic, Psychosis, Suicide, Trapped|Comments Off on From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

Sanding on the edge of Waterloo Bridge
With the cold wind cutting my face,
I glance down to the Thames far below;
It ebbs and flows, a sea of waste.

I hold tight to the iron bar,
Blades of ice begin to pour.
Behind me the […]

1103, 2013

Life 1

By |March 11th, 2013|Dark, Death, Insight, Life, Philosophical, Quotes, Spiritual|Comments Off on Life 1

Life only lets us see what death cannot hide.

David Holloway 2011 (c)

‘The Colours of Schizophrenia’

1309, 2012

Life in the land of the Dead

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Loss, Lost, Panic, Psychosis, Senses, Trapped|Comments Off on Life in the land of the Dead

I live in the land of the dead.
Upon this path I have taken my walk alone.
My feet would hit the ground with hard and steady steps.
I hear cymbals crashing and the tuneful rhythm of the beating of drums.
I have lost […]

1309, 2012

The Quiet Room

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Fear, Panic, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on The Quiet Room

By a thread, I hang, as the knell tolls.
Moribund and cacophonous,
Surrounded by angels of death, I am.
They chortle and laugh at me, as
The tragic side show carries on.
I am amongst the persecuted,
Caught in a sinister grasp-
With the clapping of thunder,
My […]

2307, 2012


By |July 23rd, 2012|Alone, Anxiety, Dark, Death, Fear, Philosophical, Symptoms|Comments Off on Seclusion

Tonight is a dark night
Here within the garden of the deceased
In this place where wounded spirits who have lost their sanity
Are banned from the world outside,
Here in this desolate place where nobody sees the light of day.
I am alone where […]

1806, 2012


By |June 18th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Paranoia, Psychosis|Comments Off on dull

No train nor car is able to dull the screams,
A living nightmare for which I have no control.

I battle against his wishes but he’s too strong,
He overpowers my mind with the slightest ease he scares me…

He wants me to run […]

1605, 2012

Paranoid Schizophrenia

By |May 16th, 2012|Alone, Audio, Dark, Death, Humiliation, Mind Games, Stigma, Symptoms|2 Comments

I am looking ahead as so many are following behind me
Everyone’s hands reaching out to hurt me somehow-
I feel are manipulating my thoughts-
People looking ahead and so many following behind me
On this mesmerizing spring-like day- I wonder why this world […]

303, 2012

Interminable Life

By |March 3rd, 2012|Audio, Death, Loss, Suicide|Comments Off on Interminable Life

Walking this Earth for nearly thirty-eight years
Discovering myriad things to bring wonder and pain
Finding truths in many places during that time
Girls and women fascinate my mind excitement runs
Thrilled to the marrow by curves and plumpness
Watching people have children totally undeserved
Uncared […]

203, 2012

Peace of Hell

By |March 2nd, 2012|Audio, Dark, Death, Love Gone Bad|Comments Off on Peace of Hell

Dark and hot awash in oblivion
Blasting away all that was
A furnace of never ending torment
Is this the worst you have?
Is this all that you can do to me?
I have lived in times of strife
Lived in grief unimaginable
Died of a heart […]

402, 2011

211th Chorus

By |February 4th, 2011|Dark, Death|1 Comment

The wheel of the quivering meat conception,
Turns in the void expelling human beings,
Pigs, turtles, frogs, insects, nits,
Mice, lice, lizards, rats, roan,
Racinghorses, poxy bucolic pigtics,
Horrible unnameable lice of vultures,
Murderous attacking dog-armies,
Of Africa, Rhinos roaming in the jungle,
Vast boars and huge gigantic […]

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