2606, 2014


By |June 26th, 2014|Alone, Panic, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped, Uncategorized, Voices|Comments Off on Stuck

Spying, crying.
Talking, mocking.
Screaming, creeping.
I can feel them in my head.
I only wish they were under my bed.
There’s no light when they start speaking.
I’m stuck in the dark, my cranium creaking.
My mind is abused, every day.
There are people in my head […]

1812, 2013


By |December 18th, 2013|Dark, Demonic, Insight, Introspection, Mind Games, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Schizophrenia

There is no fight when the voices begin

An immediate obedience naturally sets in

There is no defence against these spiritual offenders

Waiting and hoping that they accept your surrender

I wake up refreshed, feeling o.k.

But sounds of familiarity ruin my day

No night passes […]

1610, 2013

Unearthly Beings

By |October 16th, 2013|Consciousness, Dark, Delusion, Fantasy, Mind Games, Psychosis, Senses, Spiritual, Supernatural, Symptoms|Comments Off on Unearthly Beings

I see them, they are so real.
They fade as soon as they learn that I am awake and see them watching me.
They are concealed with bright yellow light, just a shape is there for me to behold.
Last night it was […]

3007, 2013

From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

By |July 30th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Confusion, Dark, Death, Depression, Fear, Mind Games, Panic, Psychosis, Suicide, Trapped|Comments Off on From The Edge Of Waterloo Bridge

Sanding on the edge of Waterloo Bridge
With the cold wind cutting my face,
I glance down to the Thames far below;
It ebbs and flows, a sea of waste.

I hold tight to the iron bar,
Blades of ice begin to pour.
Behind me the […]

1402, 2013

I’m Not Schizophrenic

By |February 14th, 2013|Alone, Anxiety, Consciousness, Insight, Introspection, Mistrust, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Symptoms, Trapped|Comments Off on I’m Not Schizophrenic

I’m not schizophrenic.
But I have a mental illness.
I have schizophrenia.
There is a difference.
I am not an illness.
I have an illness.

I see things, that others cannot.
I hear things, that others cannot.
I am unable to distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate.
Reptiles and snakes […]

1310, 2012


By |October 13th, 2012|Medication, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Voices|Comments Off on Prolixin

Today I heard voices upon awakening-
They were screaming “I want to kill you”
In this moment of madness I turned my head, and found myself alone.
I thought I had heard footsteps and believed that
These voices were coming from hell-

But again I […]

1309, 2012

Life in the land of the Dead

By |September 13th, 2012|Dark, Death, Loss, Lost, Panic, Psychosis, Senses, Trapped|Comments Off on Life in the land of the Dead

I live in the land of the dead.
Upon this path I have taken my walk alone.
My feet would hit the ground with hard and steady steps.
I hear cymbals crashing and the tuneful rhythm of the beating of drums.
I have lost […]

2808, 2012


By |August 28th, 2012|Dark, Demonic, Dreams, Fantasy, Loss, Lost, Manic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Religious, Salvation, Supernatural, Symptoms, Trapped, Voices|Comments Off on Salvation

Trapped within a crowd of hellish strangers
I shy away as they vindictively look into my eyes and
Presumptuously, steal my thoughts-
Laughter fills the air- as
Their voices terrorize- simultaneously the voices inside of my mind echo in an
Attempt to comfort, to placate […]

2507, 2012

Palaces in the Sky

By |July 25th, 2012|Anxiety, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Paranoia, Psychosis, Reality, Symptoms|Comments Off on Palaces in the Sky

Forever lost inside my own world-never to come out of hiding
I am building palaces in the sky though I can only see the stars.
I can only see the stars, and
The quarter moon’s light shining dimly upon the horizon
Casting its shadows […]

1807, 2012

Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

By |July 18th, 2012|Alone, Dark, Delusion, Fear, Panic, Psychosis, Reality|Comments Off on Electoconvulsive Therapy (ECT)

In this moment I feel as if I am falling,
Into a prison from nowhere,
I see my shadow arabesque as
I watch my reflection appear
In a river of never abating madness-
Hiding from all that is real,
Moments have passed since I lay upon
A […]

1806, 2012


By |June 18th, 2012|Dark, Death, Demonic, Paranoia, Psychosis|Comments Off on dull

No train nor car is able to dull the screams,
A living nightmare for which I have no control.

I battle against his wishes but he’s too strong,
He overpowers my mind with the slightest ease he scares me…

He wants me to run […]

2205, 2012


By |May 22nd, 2012|Alone, Audio, Dark, Mind Games, Psychosis, Senses, Symptoms|1 Comment

Falling from the heavens I can only envision
My haemorrhaging heart and my thinking
Are running overtime… I try as always and
None but consecutively to reach for the sky
Blood is cascading, I cannot arrest—
My eyes are kaleidoscopic and spiraling
Downward then upward
My lips […]

2005, 2012

Acute Schizophrenia

By |May 20th, 2012|Audio, Dark, Mind Games, Philosophical, Psychosis, Senses, Symptoms|Comments Off on Acute Schizophrenia

Falling from the heavens I can only envision
My hemorrhaging heart and my thinking
Are running overtime… I try as always and
None but consecutively to reach for the sky
Blood is cascading, I cannot arrest-
My eyes are kaleidoscopic and spiraling
Downward then upward
My lips […]

2104, 2012

Parallel Universes

By |April 21st, 2012|Audio, Dark, Demonic, Insight, Psychosis, Supernatural, Symptoms, Voices|Comments Off on Parallel Universes

The universe I live in
Is different than yours
I will show you some day
And you will believe
In places
Where death stalks all
Where trickery takes place
Where deception is king
Where demons rule
Where everything is cruel

I came here one day
Through a black hole
Called Knowledge
And viewed […]

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